Blog Post 1
Hi, welcome. I am so glad you are here!
If you are here today, reading this, it may be because you read something in my story that means something to you. It's possible that you, like me …
Feel free to check all that apply:
Have been deeply hurt by the actions and words of people or from the inaction and silence from them.
You have chosen to be totally disconnected from or may be even divorced from any relationships, people group, affiliation, or culture because they have brought more pain than gain, more chaos than peace, humiliation instead of honor.
You lack trust or confidence or faith in the systems that were in place to protect you and or even help you, so you have given up on them, and the people in them.
Made the decision to do your own thing, go your own way, and have chosen independence over dependence. But you're lonely and tired. And resentful that it's hard doing life alone.
Your sense of peace comes from a form of self-medicating, self-worship, and scrolling or substances. And you find you have more habits, hangups and anxiety.
Have been accused of striving and controlling everything and everyone but you feel justified because if you don’t get it done, or make it happen, it won’t and your safety may be compromised.
Maybe you are here because despite how long you have known God, you and Him have been at odds, or there is some kind of disconnect you may be embarrassed to admit it.
You want justice because someone needs to pay the price for what happened to you. But while you are waiting for it to be settled the bitterness inside is hurting you instead of them.
If that is your situation, it's okay - I have been there too. And this is why enLOVE Ministries exists, because I like you have experienced this also.
I won’t tell you that moving past it or getting over some of these things is going to be easy. Or that you will get over it miraculously all at once. Or that the desire to get even, and repay evil with an evil attitude doesn’t try to rear its ugly head.
Or that it will always be easy for you to find it in your heart to have more grace, more mercy, more kindness, more patience, more forgiveness or more love especially when you have already forgiven, repeatedly and given so many chances, or really tried to see it from their perspective, or prayed even harder about it.
What I can tell you is that it is possible to heal.
To love again or love for the first time.
Be reconciled to your heritage, to your history, to your past, to God.
For peace to conquer your mind.
For lies to be replaced by Truth.
For your identity to be restored because you are loved, accepted not rejected and belong.
To put yourself out there and be vulnerable without fear of humiliation.
And to forgive even when you don’t want to or feel like it or think they deserve it.
There will come a point where you would rather bless them than curse them.
Some people say yeah right, not if you knew my story and what they did. I understand. I can only offer the hope that I have because it only happened for me through God, and with God’s help that I could overcome my unforgiveness, let the bitterness flow out of my heart, allow truth to conquer my mind. See that is how I ended up here at the orphanage in Daegu, South Korea 47 years later.
If you are me and you haven’t ended up back at the place it began because it seems impossible to do it - get to that place to even talk about it because even the mere thought is too much, I understand.
I was not able to confront all things at once. Thank God He is a gentleman, gentle in spirit, and knows how much we can take. My process of healing and being delivered from fear of abandonment and rejection wasn’t overnight. I had no idea where to start and who to start with. But God did.
While it may seem like a cruel joke to send me a Korean as part of His restoration plan for me, knowing how much pain and humiliation I had and was hiding after 46 years, He knew that it would take the love of one Korean woman to heal the wound of another Korean woman so that I could fulfil the mission.
God knows what you need. He does. He knows who to send. And where to start.
Will you accept His invitation?
