Healed to Love. Freed to Live. Life Abundantly.
My Story
For 46 years of my life, I carried pain that affected more than I realized.
Being abandoned at four days old and adopted from Korea created wounds of rejection, abandonment, fear, shame. To cover those wounds striving, pride, and false images were my self protection. I saw life from a lens of rejection and self-rejection. It distorted how I saw God, myself, others, my own identity, my Korean heritage, and the mothers in my life.
Life brought additional pain, trauma, disappointment, and broken relationships. Over time, I blamed broken systems, the brokenness of others, and mostly God for many of the wounds I carried. I believed I had been abandoned, rejected, forgotten, and left to figure life out on my own.
Even many years later, those beliefs, continued to influence how I loved, trusted, connected, parented, responded, and related to my husband, my children, my family, and the Lord.
My pride had created blind spots. It kept me from seeing my need to address the hurts because the pain had never really gone away. I had only become better at covering it up through success, career, marriage, motherhood, and even ministry.
Underneath it all, I was still a hurt little girl trying to protect herself. I could not see how pride, self-protection, and self-centeredness were affecting the people I loved and the way I lived.
My Story Meets My Calling
In January 2023, God gave me a revelation and shared His heart for women who had been hurt by broken systems, wounded by the brokenness of others, and who blamed Him for their pain.
He called me to help women encounter His love, truth, healing, freedom, and restoration.
At the time, I thought He was only talking about other women. I did not realize He was also talking to me.
Only a week later, God connected me with Dr. Sun Fannin and Sunshine International Ministries for training and mentoring in inner healing, deliverance, and intercessory prayer.
What I thought was preparation for ministry became part of my own healing journey.
Through inner healing prayer, deliverance ministry, counseling, training, and mentoring, Jesus began revealing the true condition of my heart. Pride had to die. Self-protection had to come down. The lies formed through painful memories had to be replaced with God's truth.
As I responded to His truth, strongholds were broken. Freedom came. Peace came. Restoration began.
Healed to Love.
Jesus healed places in my heart that affected my ability to receive love, give love, and be emotionally available to the people closest to me.
Pastor Sun had prophesied that the wound caused by one Korean mother would be healed by another Korean mother.
That word came to pass.
God used Pastor Sun's love, mentoring, and ministry to show me I could trust the love of a mother. She became my Korean mom—my Eomma—an unexpected gift from God.
Through that healing, I was able to forgive my biological mother and receive compassion for what she may have experienced. I also repented for the ways I had resisted and rejected the mothers in my life because of the pain I carried.
God restored connection with my mom, my stepmom, my mother-in-law, my husband, my children, and ultimately my relationship with Him as Father.
Freed to Live.
Jesus brought freedom to my soul.
By the Holy Spirit, He revealed the lies that had kept me bound to rejection, abandonment, fear, self-protection, and the orphan mindset.
As I recognized His truth, I repented for believing those lies, renounced agreement with them, and began renewing my mind with who God says I am.
I was no longer bound by the belief that I was unwanted, alone, unlovable, or responsible for protecting myself at all costs.
The false image I carried of God began to fall away. I no longer believed He had abandoned me, rejected me, or caused the pain I had experienced. Instead, I came to know Him as a loving Father who had never left me and who had been pursuing me all along.
Freedom allowed me to receive love, trust others, and walk in greater intimacy with God.
It also prepared me to receive training, mentoring, correction, and equipping for the calling God had placed on my life.
Life Abundantly
The restoring work of God touched every part of my life.
He restored intimacy with Him.
He restored my marriage.
He brought healing into my mothering.
He reconciled family relationships.
He restored connection to my Korean heritage and culture.
I have now traveled to Korea twice. I visited the orphanage where my life began, built relationships with Korean people, ministered alongside Korean believers, and received the blessing of Korean spiritual family.
Standing at the orphanage where my life began, Jeremiah 29:11–13 came alive to me. It was then I realized God had been there all along. His plan was never disaster, but a future and a hope. What I perceived as exile, was part of His greater plan; His heart was for me to seek Him, find Him, see the truth, and be reconciled to Him.
What began as a story of rejection became a testimony of God's redemption and restoration.
This restoration also prepared me to walk in the calling God placed on my life. Today, I help women seek the Lord, receive His truth, pursue healing, and learn to walk in freedom through Jesus Christ.
I have been healed to love.
Freed to live.
Life abundantly.
All honor and Glory belong to Jesus Christ.
